Gothic is my secret life

The secret side of me, I never let you see
I keep it caged but I can't control it
So stay away from me, the beast is ugly
I feel the rage and I just can't hold it

It's scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls
It comes awake and I can't control it
Hiding under the bed, in my body, in my head
Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster

My secret side I keep hid under lock and key
I keep it caged but I can't control it
'Cause if I let him out he'll tear me up, break me down
Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster

It's hiding in the dark, it's teeth are razor sharp
There's no escape for me, it wants my soul, it wants my heart
No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream
Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I've gotta lose control, he something radical
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster

ovaj post je za mog makar sam ja verovala da mi je najbolji drug ,....Neco izvini za sve ali ti si trebao da reshish taj problem ne ja,...nemogu ja protiv sebe i Filozofa,....ako ikada budesh mogao da predjesh preko toga,..javi se,.....znash i sam,..da nikada necu prestati da te gotivim,....ali ako ne zelish ja cu to poshtovati,..mada opet mozda i necu jer ne zelim samo tako da zaboravim sve shto smo zajedno proshli,.....zao mi je shto nisam ranije uvidela shta se deshava sada je mozda prekasno,..ali nada umire poslednja i sam znash da ja nikad ne odustajem,........

Blessthefall grew out of high school practice sessions consisting of guitarist Mike Frisby, drummer Matt Traynor, vocalist Craig Mabbitt and bassist Jared Warth. After founding member Miles Bergsma left to attend college at the Berklee College of Music in Boston, they released a three-track EP in mid-2005 and added guitarist Eric Lambert to form their first solid line-up.^[1] Phoenix-area gigs with Greeley Estates and an openly religious orientation got the band local press and a deal with Warner subsidiary, Science Records.^[2] The band then toured with Alesana and Norma Jean across the United States and Canada.^[4] Their debut album, His Last Walk, was released on April 10, 2007, to mixed reviews.^[5][6][7] The band completed the entire 2007 Warped Tour circuit nationwide.^[4] His Last Walk peaked at #32 on the U.S. Billboard Heatseekers chart.^[8]

Blessthefall toured with Escape The Fate, LoveHateHero, Before Their Eyes, and Dance Gavin Dance on the Black On Black tour during September and October 2007, they were also part of the Underground Operations Tour And Loathing Tour 2007, opening for Protest The Hero and All That Remains, along with fellow opening bands, Threat Signal and the Holly Springs Disaster, and were a part of From First to Last's fall headlining tour, starting November 1 with A Skylit Drive and Vanna.

[edit] Removal of Mabbitt and Recent Events (2008-present)

While on their first European tour (with Silverstein), in December 2007, Mabbitt left the band during the United Kingdom portion, for (according to the band's MySpace blog) "personal reasons." For the remainder of the tour, Jared filled in for vocals as well as playing bass. When Mabbitt later returned to Blessthefall, the band members decided not to let him back in, preferring to move on without him. On December 15, 2007 Blessthefall posted a blog on their MySpace announcing their parting ways with Mabbitt and Mabbitt posted a bulletin on his personal MySpace stating his willingness to return to the band.

After the European tour, the band decided to look for a temporary fill in bass player so that Jared Warth could concentrate on vocals. Aiden Louis, vocalist of Dear Whoever, was added to the group to fill in the bass and backup vocals. This was their lineup for Taste of Chaos 2008.

In early 2008, Blessthefall released a new video for the song Rise Up from the album His Last Walk. The video, (directed by Travis Kopach), is the first not to include Mabbitt.

In May 2008, Blessthefall's tour friend Escape the Fate announced Mabbitt had joined them for the recording of their next album.^[9]

Finally, on September 25, 2008, the group announced that they had chosen a new lead singer, Beau Bokan, after months of searching. Bokan was the former lead singer for Take the Crown, a group who released one album on Rise Records earlier in 2008 before disbanding.

The band is set to record their new album in May and hope to release it within September, entitled "To Hell and Back." Recently (February) the band have announced on their myspace page to be heading into the studio in May after their tour with Silverstein, A Static Lullaby, and Before Their Eyes.

The band has announced on their myspace page that they have signed to Fearless Records.

On May 31st the band announced via myspace that they were officially finished with the recording of their new album and it is to be released in the fall sometime. A title has still not been announced.

[edit] Members

Current

• Beau Bokan - Lead vocals, Keyboard, Synth
• Eric Lambert - Lead guitars, Vocals
• Mike Frisby - Rhythm guitars
• Jared Warth - Bass, Screams
• Matt Traynor - Drums, Percussion

Former

• Aiden Louis - Fill in bassist/backup vocals (vocalist of Dear Whoever)
• Miles Bergsma - Guitar (now playing guitar for New York alternative band The Woulda Coulda Shouldas)
• Craig Mabbitt - Vocals (now in Escape the Fate)

[edit] Discography

[edit] Albums/EPs

[edit] Singles

[edit] Videos

Jesus on Extasy are an alternative rock band from Germany.

Having recently signed to Drakkar Entertainment, they released their debut album Holy Beauty in March 2007 and their second album Beloved Enemy on May 2, 2008.

Their sound combines rock music with synthesisers almost to the level of Techno music. The lyrical themes focus on love, loneliness and technology.

Jesus on Extasy have worked with German Industrial rock band KMFDM on a remix of their single "Assassinate Me." They have also supported Austrian electronic music band L'Âme Immortelle during their 2006 tour.^{[citation needed]}

The band toured Europe with Letzte Instanz and later with Entwine in spring 2007,^{[citation needed]} and later they played at some festivals including M'era Luna. In [2007] he was with Xandria cooperated as Xandria Vs. Jesus on Extasy and released the EP Sisters of the Light. In 2008 they will play at Wave-Gotik-Treffen on May 10 and Summer Breeze Open Air on August 14.

Members:

Dorian Deveraux (Vocals, Guitar, Keyboard, Sampling)

Chai (Guitar, synth, samples, backing vocals, programming)

Ophelia Dax (synthesisers)

BJ (Bass guitar)

Dino (Drums)

Nesto bzw,...sedim tako i razmisljam cemu owaj ziwot,...imas toliko prijatelja koji jedwa docekaju da ti se nesh desi pa da te ogowaraju i okriwe za ko zna sta,...ako cemo iskreno to nikome nije potrebno,...opet se okrenes pa i ne mozes bez prijatelja,....ali naci ono ili onu prawu prijatelja/icu je uzasno tesko!!!!!!!Ali opet ako nekoga tako dobrog nadjete i uzasno ga gotiwite,..ono prewise wam se swidi,i ocete da budete neko u njegowom ili njenom ziwotu,...ali ta osoba was jednostawno posle nekog wremena bez razloga odbije,...i onda mi kazu da sam ja pateticna!!!!Pa nisam,....nego je uzasno tesko naci drustwo sa kojim ces se skrasiti,..i ono pronaci sebe kao deo necega!!!!!!mozda wi ne delite misljenje sa mnom,..ali jbg ja to tako widim!!!!!!!!

Nije me dugo bilo,znam,jbg ne stizem bas swe,ali ewo sada cu wam se jawiti!!!!Sada i kad stignem da dodjem owde oswezawam "kuchke",a owa tri sam zapostawila jbg,zao mi je da ih brisem_mozda se jedan dan zainatim,pa objawim post na swim,a mozda i ne!!!!JBS owo wreme kada ne stignes ni post da objawis!!!!-------xD-----

Prosto da ne powerujes,koliko cowek moze da sjebe swoj ziwot u trenutku,ali ajd!!!!Ono kao swe je cool swe je super,a ustwari kada se oswrnes nish nije kako treba_i sta sad ti tu mozes_pa nish!!!!Nemam bas nekih poslowa owde razmisljala sam da obrisem blogowe,ali ipak necu neka ih neka stoje,pa kad ne znam sta cu ja imam hwala bogu 4bloga pa mogu da biram na koji cu da pisem post!!!!Et to je ukratko to,ne bih was wise zadrzawala!!!!!!!!yub ^_^'

Moja omiljenja fraza,koju koristim kad stignem!!!!Ali mislim da sada mogu samo da goworim I’m dead,because of you!!!!MOzda wise ne zasluzujem da budem srcna,mozda samo on nije taj decko,mozda sam ga uwredila ili powredila,ne znam!!!!A ako owako nastawim nikada necu ni doznati,zasto bas moram da sam ja starija od njega 2godine,zasto je tako dobar kada se sretnemo i kada niko od njegowog drustwa nije u blizini,a zasto je tako grub kada su oni sa njime!!!!Zar mora da je tako,a samo sam ga zelela za prijatelja,da li je to toliko tesko?!!!!!!!!Izgleda da jeste!!!!Mozda sam jednostawno pedofil kako me njegowi drugowi zowu koji  I ne zna da swe oko sebe smaram i da sam nepozeljna u njegowom drustwu!!!!Zar je moralo da ispadne tako,a samo sam zelela da budemo prijatelji,....!

Ovaj blog mi je malcice zardjao,ali ewo sada ce da se vrati u svoju top formu!!!!Mogu reci da je ovaj post itekako svez,jer sam odmah sela da ga napisem!!!!Tacnije imala sam trening i krenula na busku sa drustvom,oni otisli ja ostala da cekam tricu!!!!Joj tu je bio jedan par kako su slatki on neki emos(ustvari ima samo siske),ona sasvim normalna_kako se nezno ljube bas su jedno za drugo!!!!Nego skenuh ja sam teme,i tako stojim ja i slusam muziku,i primetim da jedan stariji decko stalno pokusava da mi uhvati pogled,kad pored njega jos jedan_oni su me odmeravali,ma zurili u mene citavo vreme sto je jos najbolje bila sam sama na buskoj(ukljucujuci i njih dvojicu)!!!!!Ovo bi za neke bila pohvala ali meni nije,to znaci gde god da odem moracu ono da se ponasam drsko sam da me neki kreteni ne bi odmeravali,ufff kako to mrzim!!!!Ok je kada te neko pogleda dok prolazis ali owi su me gledali i jos nesto ogovarali toliko glasno da sam ih i pored muzike cula!!!!!Mada jbg nisam uspela da razaznam reci!!!!!Napokon je dosao bus i ja sam se takoreci ukrcala,ali sam jos uvek bila ljuta zbog onih kretena!!!!Truckala sam jedno tri stanice(lazem bila je samo jedna prosla)kada je usao decko,sa rancem!!!!A joj bila je to ljubav na prvi pogled,stajao je pored mada bi se moglo reci prekoputa posto smo bili okrenuti ledjima,imao je smedju kratku kosu & smedje okice!!!!Bas mi je nekako nezan,i sve tako u tom fazonu!!!!Sto je najbolje od svega primetila sam da svaki put kada bus malo miruje on mi se priblizi,i ja reko ajd okreni se i pitaj ga za broj.....nje ja se preplasila neuspeha!!!!!!Kakav maler,no tako smo truckali jos dobrih petnesteak minuta,kada je izasao,zelela sam da podjem za njime,ali opet imala sam osecaj da je tuzan,pa ono verovatno bi bilo sta sad ti hoces,...........i glupaca nisam!!!!!Stao je ispod krova od neke zgrade i gledao u zemlju,....kako je bio tuzan!!!!!I ostao je da ceka neki drugi bus.....kako sam smela da ga ostavim u takwom stanju,ali ipak se okrenuo kada je shvatio da ja izlazim na sledecoj,i ja sam mu se nasmesila!!!!Sta bi me kostalo da sam izasla jednu stanicu ranije i da sam ga pitala za broj!!!!!Ufufufufufufufufuffu bas bi wolela da ga opet sretnem,i mislim da bi jedno od nas sigurno pitalo owo drugo za broj!!!!Et toliko za sada u subotu imam rodjus kod mog tacnije jednog od najboljih drugova Alberta(jedwa cekam)!!!!!!!!!Bubim was sve i hwala za komove & faworite!!!!!!!!                                                                Bubac<3

Evo da se javim,uskoro ce skola,pa i necu imati toliko vremena da pisem!!!!Nema nista novo,ono idem svaki dan napolje i pokusavam da uhvatim jednog decka totalno je otkacen i sve u tom ludom ritmu_valjda cu uspeti!!!!Cula sam da RBD dolaze u Beograd bas mi nije drago ali njihovim fanovima sigurno jeste!!!!Et samo da se javim sada sam u poslu jer uredjujem sest blogova jer mi MirukiUxe nije tu pa i njene blogove uredjujem!!!!!Jedino cemu se veselim jeste to sto cu konacno poceti sa treninzima,i imacu ih pet puta nedeljno_jedva cekam!!!Eto to bi bilo to za ovo javljanje!!!!!

                                                                             Ljubac

  Ev cisto da ubacim nesto i na ovaj blog!!!Pre par dana sam iz nevezanog,otisla kod drugarice i njen brat nije hteo da se ja i njegov drug upoznamo_jer kako kaze ja sam sva u goti stilu_to za mene nije uvreda niti ce ikada biti!!!!Ali da toliko neko mrzi darkere to mi  nije jasno,ne zele ih u svojoj blizini i jos im nesh seru iza ledja!!!!Klinja je sav u fazonu americkog rvanja,samo igra igrice cak i nema puno nesh prijatelja_a i te sto ima to su svi narodnjaci-pa udri me do zore!!!!Odem tako nesh kod njih i normalno javim mu se a on meni kao mars_ne bi sad da ga mlatim_jer ce srati kod svojih!!!Ali e jbt, klinac oladi malo!!!!!Ubedjena sam da on i ne zna nista osim narodnjackih pesama,igranja fife i zderanja!!!!E pa vala,ne moze to tako i darkeri su ljudi i treba ih pustiti da zive svoj zivot kako oni to zele,a ne na svakom koraku da ih neko srece i da im nesh prigovara!!!!Stvarno ne znam vise sta da radim,ali mi je vec dosta da slusam kako darkeri ne treba da zive,i tako ta sranja!!!!!!!I ako taj klinac slucajno vidi ovaj blog imam jednu poruku za njega:Leave me alone,& fuck you!!!!!!!!

eeee ppl,ne znam sta da vam pisem,ali stvarno pa evo par fotki,da ne bude da nish ne ubacujem!!!!!!!!

ewo wam neke slike goth narawno... nemam poma ta da pisem...

Hay! Ja sam Missy i owo je moj nowi blog cetwrti ali mislim da ce ici ok!
Bice o necemu o cemu mnogo ljudi ne zna da wolim, o gothic stwarima! Mnoooogo wolim GOTHIC i emo i Jrock i moje frendice!!!!!! A owaj blog cu pisati kad budem stigla jer sam nesht zajebala blogger pa nece budala da mi pise postowe... Ko zna sta sam je radila...
Pa pisacu wishe u nowim postowima kasnije i narawno stawljacu slike!!!!!                       kiss